I think we’re almost there.

I think a propsal is coming soon.

We were doing a little evening cuddling the other night, and and again, I just felt this feeling of complete contentness (is that a word)?

He was holding me tight, and he whispered to me – “You know, I’m going to marry you, and you’re going to have our babies, and I love you so much.”

I feel like I’m writing a romance novel here.. but I was all warm and fuzzy when he said it. I mean, I guess I’ve known for a while that it’s coming, but instead of only just ‘knowing’ it inside of myself, to hear him vocalize it is great.

I’ll be honest. In the beginning, when we first started dating, I entertained ideas of marrying him so that I could “keep” him. This is not a good reason for getting married. A year and a half into it, I am so content and more peaceful than I’ve ever been in my life. He is a great influence and force in my life. When I am with him I want to be a better person. I am in a relationship where I can totally and completely feel comfortable being myself, and he loves me anyway.

And I don’t love him because he loves me. I’m just illustrating that it makes me feel good about how he loves  me. We’re on the same page.

Moving on, this morning we were talking about music, and this new guitar came out that he is really interested in (and that I wish I could buy him! But $6,000 is a bit above my price range.) I said something to him like, “Time to start saving!” And he responded, “I’d rather use the money to buy a ring.”

I don’t think I said a word, but just blushed madly. How can a man I’ve lived with for over a year make me blush like that?

On another front, I’ve chosen a new dress. I love my first pick, but the location for the wedding can be chilly, even in the summer.

My New Dress